Blogging is more difficult these days
than I would like. On first thought, I'm not sure why. When I think
about it, I have many ideas I want to explore or things I have done
that I want to share. But the problem seems to be that my mind is too
busy as well as my life to focus. It's not crazy busy like I have 100
bushels of apples to process or I have three events scheduled every
day at the same time, but it's busy all the same.
It's busy with important life issues.
There is a very, very sick relative and a very needy elderly parent
who are using much of my energy. There is also planning for the next
stage of life. The empty nest has brought thoughts of what my husband
and I want to do--where we want to live, how we want to live, when we
want to retire, what we can afford, etc.
It's also busy with everyday things like doing the laundry and fixing
the lawnmower. Going to work and taking the cats to the vet. Cleaning
the fridge and freezing tomatoes. Paying the bills and tutoring the
girl next door. You know, the things that provide the rhythm for our days.
And I am lucky that I also have some
time to spend on things that truly make me smile. Watching the birds.
Exploring my yard. Lunching with friends. Visiting with my kids.
Sitting on the couch with my husband and watching a silly TV show.
Where am I going with all of this? I'm not sure. I have no great conclusions except that life goes in cycles and sometimes you feel restless and unfocused. And sometimes you don't.
So there you have it. The beginnings of
my exploration into why I feel unsettled these days. Now
it's time to go to work. Thanks for listening to my ramblings.