Unfocused

Blogging is more difficult these days than I would like. On first thought, I'm not sure why. When I think about it, I have many ideas I want to explore or things I have done that I want to share. But the problem seems to be that my mind is too busy as well as my life to focus. It's not crazy busy like I have 100 bushels of apples to process or I have three events scheduled every day at the same time, but it's busy all the same.

It's busy with important life issues. There is a very, very sick relative and a very needy elderly parent who are using much of my energy. There is also planning for the next stage of life. The empty nest has brought thoughts of what my husband and I want to do--where we want to live, how we want to live, when we want to retire, what we can afford, etc.

It's also busy with everyday things like doing the laundry and fixing the lawnmower. Going to work and taking the cats to the vet. Cleaning the fridge and freezing tomatoes. Paying the bills and tutoring the girl next door. You know, the things that provide the rhythm for our days.

And I am lucky that I also have some time to spend on things that truly make me smile. Watching the birds. Exploring my yard. Lunching with friends. Visiting with my kids. Sitting on the couch with my husband and watching a silly TV show. 

Where am I going with all of this? I'm not sure. I have no great conclusions except that life goes in cycles and sometimes you feel restless and unfocused. And sometimes you don't.

So there you have it. The beginnings of my exploration into why I feel unsettled these days. Now it's time to go to work. Thanks for listening to my ramblings.